Crystal Theory Christmas Chillout CD

,and he was wondering if there was any thing else in life. Alcoholism ran on his father's side of the family..... God only knows how many generations. In his early 20's Russ was generally a happy go lucky, fun loving person, and couldn't understand why he had these weird depressing feelings deep down inside. They felt like waves of torment and agony and they would come and go periodically. He decided to quit his job as a baker at a Woolworth Store in Medicine Hat and go else where and things might change. Before he left town an older lady he worked with, by the name of Tess, gave him a Bible. As they exchanged good-bye's, Russ mentioned he might be a singer someday. She replied politely, yes maybe in a church. Russ knew that would never happen because he hated Sunday school when he was little, and now as an older person, even dreaded the thought of going,let alone talking or singing. Although he forced himself to go to church 3 times anyway, thinking it might do something for those rotten feelings that were tearing him apart inside. However church didn't help. A girl he sat beside told him he didn't look like the type and the preacher said to her he didn't care for the suit he was wearing. So Russ wound up in Red Deer Alberta,landed a job in another bakery, and lived in a small basement suite by himself with the Bible beside his bed which he tried to read but couldn't make much meaning of. Confused, and still drinking and mixed up and tormented by his inner demons, he went to work daily and did the best he could. Then one night Russ had an experience he still talks about today 35 years later. One night while sitting on the edge of his bed in that dark little suite, a wave of these bad feelings started to manifest and torment him, the feeling was horrific, very hard to explain. Total hopelessness overcame him and he was desperate to get rid of it. At first he thought he should pray. Then he thought that would be kinda dumb. After all, who would listen? He even felt embarrassed at the thought of praying. A battle in his mind was going strong. But out of pure desperation he decided to give prayer a shot. This is what he said: "GOD, I DON'T KNOW IF YOUR REAL, OR NOT REAL, BUT IF YOU ARE REAL PLEASE TAKE THIS ROTTEN FEELING OUT OF ME! Instantly, something like an electric current touched him, starting at the top of his head and cleaned part of this bad stuff out,it felt so good all he said was, "again" and the power went through him again, and the third time he said "again" and all the rotten feelings left. He woke up the next morning feeling well slept and not knowing really what happened. He went to ...

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